Well, not exactly lean, but certainly mean and most definitely a feeding machine. No, I will not be joining La Leche League at any time soon though.
High- (or low-) lights of breastfeeding so far:
- The pain when breastfeeding that the first midwife said would only hurt for the first ten or so times.
- O having a touch of jaundice, making him very tired and preventing him from feeding properly. As breastfeeding is everything here in Sweden, the next thing I know I am sitting up in bed while a midwife ‘milks’ me into a teaspoon and then feeds the tiny output to O.
- Only being able to breastfeed while lying down and the pain still being so intense then that I have to employ the lamaze breathing exercises to get him to latch on.
- Being told by another midwife that the pain will continue for the first couple of weeks.
- Eventually being able to breastfeed sitting up but the pain spreading from my nipples to the whole breast and lasting for an hour to an hour and a half afterwards.
- And finally, today - after three weeks of painful breastfeeding - being told what I had feared: that I have thrush and have to have this treated. Hopefully, this will stop the pain. And luckily, the thrush doesn’t seem to have transferred to O.
So, now I am crossing fingers and toes that the treatment works and solves the problem of the pain as I really want to be able to breastfeed successfully. As I said, it’s all about the breastfeeding here and you are made to feel guilty if you cannot or choose not to breastfeed.
It really has been a tough few weeks with the feeding. On the other hand, O is a well-behaved little thing, sleeping reasonably well, feeding only twice during the night and generally being adorable. And for that I count our blessings.